Battle of Struggles

We couldve been so good together. I cant stop thinking about you and i really miss you. I think my feelings grew too fast but i am starting to realize i cant help wht i want. I thought the day we spent together was amazing. I remeber falling into your chest, cuddling closer and closer, i felt so safe laying in the car there. You used to joke around saying how we should make love and now i have the strongest urge to… i wish you wouldnt have let others stop you from making anything happen  between  you  me….i can take the teasing and joking with our co workers but wht i cant take is the rejection by you after being given so much hope…i feel like i am heartbroken all over again.

When u see someone post something and you wish with all your heart tht it’s about you…and then u think thts it’s not and you want to cry…

Realizing the truth hurts beyond belief….but sometimes it is needed I guess we will never have anything more then a friendship and if tht means a person like u can still be in my life I’ll take it. No matter wht I will care for u and I think tht spark tht I have for u won’t die out anytime soon. I see it now though you miss her and you fell for her and I guess like I was trying too move on so were you and somewhere along the road my feelings grew strong but urs didn’t which is how we ended up where we are now. I miss being closer to you though I miss the cuddling the hugs the laughs and joke and especially the moment whn u would just keep me company, I understand it won’t really happen again tht closeness with you but we both hurt people and I’m sorry I didn’t stop u I’m so sorry because from our actions u lost someone so close and I won’t forgive myself for tht. For wht it’s worth I love you so much as a person and I only want you to get wht u want…even of all you wanted was physical attention at the time I guess I needed to give you it….I wish u the best in life and will always be here whn u need me but in order for me to keep my word you’re going to have to be the one to reach out to me to ask for help…I love you…